I Am Enough

You’re not good enough.

You can’t fulfill me.

You’ll never be enough.

So I do more

I try harder

I meet your goals

The bar is raised once more.

I believe your words.

I see what you see.

I will always fall short.

So I do more.

I try harder.

I meet my goals.

The bar is raised once more.

I’m growing weary.

I can’t keep this up.

Perfection is my goal.

So I do more.

I try harder.

Strive for my goals.

The bar cannot be raised.

I’m not good enough.

I can’t be fulfilled.

I’ll never be enough.

I can’t do more.

Can’t try harder.

Can’t meet my goals.

How did I get to this?

I was made enough.

You do fulfill me.

I am enough for you.

I don’t need more.

Don’t have to try.

No goals to meet.

Remind me who I am.

~6/15/2014~

Perfect Girl

I am the perfect girl-
straight A’s in everything.
I am the perfect girl-
a body that girls envy.
I am the perfect girl-
too many friends to count.
I am the perfect girl-
I go to church weekly,
whenever it’s open.
I am the perfect girl-
I know just what to say.
I am the perfect girl-
I have a great boyfriend.
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?
I am the perfect girl-
why do I feel so trapped?
I am the perfect girl-
why am I so alone?
I am the perfect girl-
why has my world been crushed?
I am the perfect girl-
where will I get the cash
to pay for my future?
I am the perfect girl-
who’s there when I need them?
I am the perfect girl-
why does my dad hate me?
I am the perfect girl-
how will I survive this?
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?
I am the perfect girl-
flawless on the outside,
broken on the inside.
I am the perfect girl-
plastic smiles and fake laughs,
the one with the trust issues.
I am the perfect girl-
I know how to play it,
to get just what I want.
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?

~12-31-2012~