Burdened

Why does my heart feel so heavy?

Why do I feel so burdened down?

I feel the weight of the world,

dragging me down, crushing me.

I see you across the room,

still doing what you did then.

Gossiping and spreading rumors,

lying and pretending.

It’s so cool to be the one who’s hated,

cool to be the victim, the hurt, the broken.

I’ve settled my wrongs at the altar,

I’ve been absolved of my crimes.

Why then do I feel so burdened by you?

~2-23-2014~

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Truths

People have been talking,

They tell me what you did.

Please tell me they’re lying.

They say you’re flying high,

You’re using and abusing.

Didn’t you say never?

That you hated that stuff?

Please tell me it’s not true.

Rumors make me wonder,

Was what you told me true?

Or was it all just lies?

I don’t know what to think.

Or who I should believe.

You stink of all the lies.

You don’t want me to know,

Well of you should I think.

Be honest with me, please?

My faith has been shattered

By the countless liars .

I don’t know who to trust

Please don’t join the liars.

You can’t talk your way out,

Not again, not this time.

~11-16-2013~

Perfect Girl

I am the perfect girl-
straight A’s in everything.
I am the perfect girl-
a body that girls envy.
I am the perfect girl-
too many friends to count.
I am the perfect girl-
I go to church weekly,
whenever it’s open.
I am the perfect girl-
I know just what to say.
I am the perfect girl-
I have a great boyfriend.
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?
I am the perfect girl-
why do I feel so trapped?
I am the perfect girl-
why am I so alone?
I am the perfect girl-
why has my world been crushed?
I am the perfect girl-
where will I get the cash
to pay for my future?
I am the perfect girl-
who’s there when I need them?
I am the perfect girl-
why does my dad hate me?
I am the perfect girl-
how will I survive this?
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?
I am the perfect girl-
flawless on the outside,
broken on the inside.
I am the perfect girl-
plastic smiles and fake laughs,
the one with the trust issues.
I am the perfect girl-
I know how to play it,
to get just what I want.
I am the perfect girl-
don’t you want to be me?

~12-31-2012~